life has been what you call perfect for me recently..many things have been happening, thats why i haven't really been blogging. i don't know why i'm like this, what made me like this, how i became like this. many people say its not good that i'm like this, those who really know me would know how my life works.

just got my license, passed all my tests...what else could be goin wrong? relationship problems? not till recently...ever since working began, a entirely sweet person changed into a different one altogether, how did that happen? i really don't know..perhaps i'm not ready for serious stuff yet, or perhaps the switches don't click, i don't know, i can't control it anymore.
i shall leave it all up to fate.

well, school has been quite allright, i'm pretty much settled in already, going to be year 2 already, kinda quick eh? by 2006 i'll have a diploma. wow -.- ain't much anyways. i have to learn how to stop being so pessimistic. i must know how to move on. i've received alot of comments to relax, chill, don't think so much. but i don't know why. i'm borned like that what can i do? try to change? its been implanted into the rock brain of mine since young.

should i open up the nets to catch more fish? or be contented with 1 alone? many would say, go ahead get more fish, nothing wrong with that anyway. well..i'm not like that, i rather have quality than quantity. i've already received a few recommendations. but i'm not going to bother to take it, its fate that brings two pple together, two ants, two seeds from different trees.

perhaps i'm on a stepping stone now, afraid to make that next move up to the nxt stone, and i need that motivation and encouragement from someone or pple to move up. friends always live, they never die. well, thats all i have to say for the night, as you can see i'm very troubled, advice would be appreciated :)